Thursday, April 5, 2012

for the very first time, smelling something that has been gone for a while, reminds me of something beautiful, something summer, some love. I miss standing alone at the back corridor waiting up for my parent to fetch me. or maybe with friends, chatting nonsense and we enjoyed it a lot.or maybe including love story, being watched by someone whom you admire from deep within. heartbeat , summer love, i feel alive once more.

you know sometimes, when you drink something, and when the sun shines brightly on you, you will hear someone say, " it's no use to drink water, the sun still hydrates you no matter." a friend's joke filled with laughter throughout the day. what we enjoyed the most , break time where we will have lunch at the cafeteria. although the place was crowded, but still we enjoy the commotion because high school supposed to be delightful. no matter where you heading to buy your food, you will surround by soothing symphony whereby students talking, laughing, joking and playing. such a wonder, a perfection.

once again, including romance, you will see a couple eating, peeking over each other and blushed right away. simple, yet deepest first love. when you see a person across , especially the one whom you have a crush on, your eyes will not be seen, some minor wrinkles, tiny little dimples all shown out, just a smile of shyness.

before going for a test, you might see students gathering around one place, taking out their sincerity and hard work just to score a high grade. you might heard over people saying, " yesterday i burned midnight oil just to memorize these lame facts." well, who doesn't?:) or maybe studying with friends is just as fascinating as studying with your beloved. having each other , studying together, and under the tables, having legs linked together, such closeness.

you have to close your eyes sometimes, think about your past lives, and ask yourself. are you going to waste your own time and give yourself a good credit. whatever that has missed out in your past, do not repeat those in present. make it right, and make the memories be your guidelines , walking ahead without hesitation because you know who you are, and what you should do. you know yourself better, and i have to say, sometimes past memories can be forever, like the good ones, which carved deeply inside your heart.




im gonna take example,
high school, summer love.
true friendship.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Santa Claus Is Coming To Town?:)

Its going to a Christmas day tomorrow;.so I guess it means that New Year's eve is coming. I don know if any people out there reading my blog , or observing me by using any internet access or whatever you call it, anyway just want to tell you guys that, my blog of style won't be my lifestyle anymore but all will be about food or maybe my working life:)


I might start to upload some tempting foods and all:) Well, have you guys ready for Christmas, exchanging presents , and have a meat feast? or perhaps making comfort foods , like sugar with egg whites, butter and cream , mix and whisk and there you go, some pastry going on eyh?:) or talking about the people you celebrating with, either friends or family. 







I promised one of my best friend, well she's not consider as my friend, cause she's me, my other soul:) , that I would write any poems that I have for her. I would not say every single day, but when the ideas of writing come, then I would present to her:) I know it;s a little too late, but at I start better than never right? oh by the way, I really miss her mash potatoes. I might go to her house to have it again:)

Saturday, October 8, 2011

hello again




hello again:)
let me count how long since I've not been writing posts for blogs.
hmmm..very long XD
 nowadays, i watched all the music videos from this korean show,
it calls " scent of a woman"
its about a woman has diagnosed some dying disease, she quits her job and everything to spend her 3 months life to have a beautiful vacation.
then there's this handsome man she met in this vacation,
feeling something sparkling between both, something warm , something just..there.

well, imagine you're a person who is dying ,
will you risk yourself from being hurting yourself or hurting others thoroughly by falling in love?
falling in love is no wrong,
falling in love is not putting in prison.

yes,its painful that to be hurt in both sides.
but at least the pain that burns in heart,
is a reminder where reminds us the feeling that we used to have,
and the existence of the warmth and love.

hmm, enough for the nonsense,
today i just had my video commercial shooting for rough cut presentation.
I think this is the most productive stuff that I can ever do,
I'm the director of art and the script writer.
so when during the shot, my job is working with the photographer,
checking every scenes which is on my mind, and also have to demo all the actions infront of the casts.
how weary that could be?

and I think director's job is very very highly respected.
well it should be, but i just know that ,all they do is using their most "beautiful" voice and say
" camera rolling , floor silence, and action!"
well, after that, then" cut!" , what they do, is being as a boss, approve this approve that.
while the other position would be like worrying this and that and even do MORE than the director.
boss has the authority to have a better life and get treated nicely,
which i found its kind of unfair and almost ridiculous.
anyone is working? you would be willing joining me to curse them?:D

about handling the casts, i have to say that i chose wrongly,
shouldn't choose the ppl that are quite close to me,
because all they know is asking the time duration of shooting.
well, whenever they ask that i would feeling like banging my head to the wall.
how would i know the exact time as in like i can predict something.
and never ever skip from complaining.

aiks, well, i have no rights to say this, everyone has their own objectives and i have mine.
so when we view things differently, we judge things differently.

okay, enough for those craps,
right now staying at home alone,
facing the four-squared computer as in like im having interpersonal communication with it, haha.
didn't really get to eat dinner because fetched all the casts back home till 7 something already,
and knowing that my mom is not going to prepare dinner,
after all the sweats have no choice, got to bathe,
then watch TV for awhile and fell asleep, when i wake up its already 10,
so comes to conclusion, I don get to eatXD

okay, have to do assignments now,
the re-do assign since there are many groups hand up, and only one group passed.
life's is not going to be beautiful for you
so ciao:D





Thursday, September 22, 2011

aint no more.


















I am living in my own world , if now you ask me, that I'm happy or not.

I may and I may not. 
I"m getting sick of my own life, 
and trying find something still brings me up, 
to light myself up.
all by myself i guess? 
well, good to be dependent.
stuck a needle in my ass.
i can still feel the pain in hell, 
and smell the bloody scent.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

happy birthday to you:)

hey you, happy birthday.
I really want to wish you today.
but i don have the guts.
where i'll remember everything happpened last year at the same day.

i don want to make anything more complicated.
not anymore.


Saturday, August 13, 2011

movie time

my current favorite movie:)
FYI, favorite not because is something alike to my story,
but it just awesome:)

rate this 7.7 out of 10:D