happiness gone

it's been four days that i have not seen him....i thought he just lazy to come or anything.....but when i saw his blog, writing that he is changing school, one more haircut....i saw it with ashtonishment.....why is that to be happen??why he is changing school??i don know....totally blank in my mind...it is better that he let me see him one last time, but it was too late, he's gone....besides, im out of the gang too, im not with choi mun, diana, wai mun, pei ting yean nee, chi yan they all....why??i don know since when i was not talking to them anymore..they do not need me anymore....whowants my caring...what they saying...im totally out of it...im look so tiny, tiny until that they can't see me....i think if someday im gone, there is no one realised that.sometimes, i was thinknig what i have done??did i done something wrong or i irritate them??actually the problems is the distance between us...what i wish for is to be always simple and nice.....i don't want loneliness appears in my life anymore....not now.....

end

hah!!im so happy that my geografi project has done!!im so free now. but finish my geografi project doesn't mean that i don't have to do the kh project...haih...nowadays i have to rush with doing those projects..im getting mad with this year...but never mind..i think it will be fine soon...but! PMR!! haih...okay i agree that this year we should not rest but to work harder...today mun yi come to my house for the projects and of course i quickly help her cause i have not done my jadual and grafik..hehe...finally i used 26 pages to print out her project thing...of course that is not for free....she have to pay....hahaafter that she went back home, im so happy because tonight we will be going to 1u to celebrate Happy Father's Day!!!!we will be going to watch the "Kung Fu Panda"......funny movie....let's check it later..

fated to love you

徘了徊了走了错了哭了懂了累了倦了困了 烦的乱的梦的都是真的
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的 永远的失去的怎么忘呢
你坐过的沙发 困了你爱的音乐
听了我等着你等成了哀伤
我的你的他的好的坏的难的灰的蓝的黄的 酸的甜的苦的都还记得
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘得 我想要换你了真的不想要了只得疯了
环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了
我的快乐会回来的 只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的 离开不是谁给了谁的选择
我的快乐会回来的 只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的 离开不是谁给了谁的选择
我的快乐会回来的 只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的 离开不是你给了我的选择
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的 拥有的失去的怎么忘呢
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的 我想要换你了真的不想要了
只得只得疯了疯了 忘了

china senzhen

hah!!!need to update somehow....i just came back from senzhen two days ago...its quite fun for being there but no souvenirs for my buddies...lol sorry guys...but fortunately there is something that i can buy...the thing is cd!!haha those cd are reallly cheap and good qualities...trust me!!and we buy some seafood over there!!and the happiest thing is i bought a new handphone...is good qualities and no fake at all...they can be trust and we must trust them if you smart enough to decide.i bought many taiwan movies but i am still not satisfied cause the anime show"witch hunter robin"that i wanted for so long was not there.....but anyway there are some that i can watch when i am boring...hehe...and today (6/3/08), i went out with my friends, wei ee, wei sann,and jerry..i think..
we have fun there and we just watched The Narnia Prince Caspian..quite interesting but not as fantastic as The Forbidden Kingdom...and we went back at 12 something and so and i typing for updating...hehe peace..



(what i wish to peace is the most precious hope)
(imagine what will happen in our world)
(imagine earthquakes that happen in many country)
(there's are many thing that we can't imagine)
(maybe the things that happen is more than ur inaginaton...)(i think i better have a sweet dreams)(no regret_

mei zhe

mei zhe is a girl who really loves to dance in hip hop style, or shuffle. she is good in this.wat a active person. she is looking good person.she really love to drop some jokes on others.i really love her so much. and remember last year, when i celebrated my belated birthday, she sent me a present which is green in colour.i love green.always green. although she is one year older than me, she still my precious friend.and i always love to said that she looks like some idols when i saw her.haha.she loves to listen some hip hop song, i love to listen, either.my sis, chi chi, always love to bully her. so i called her as BIG BULLY TWINS!!!haha..she is my beloved sister too.mei zhe, always be happy and love ya.!!oh yaa, and the most important thing is u have your SPM next year but just get prepared now before regret!!think before you leap!!erm...why sounds just like a frog...haha weird...

look the steps that left behind

ahh!!finally i have finish studying my kh because tomorrow i have the exam!!i refer to kh notes which is written since i was in form 1. i looked at it and felt the way that i have gone through many things and realize that my handwriting is worse!!haha...now my handwriting is even better and my thoughts mature too.i used to write to my best friends, diana, mun, wai mun, hui mun, and lots more...i still have their reply letter because it can keeps me from forget them and it was a memorable thing..and of course, everyone has admire someone,me, either.it taken me for three years and now i have let go everything and i know the feeling, i felt freedom. but today, surprisingly, i saw someone that i have not seen him for ages, so i called him as chicken little.he reallly look like a chicken little, and my friends said that the way he ran, he laughed, he talked, is just completely look like the chicken little.my urinary bladder can't store my urine any longer, so i decided go to toilet in rush, at that moment, he came down from the stairs and talking to his friends, remember last time when i saw him, i would run away, but now, i won't have the feeling. i think he saw me, but i still dare not look at him but just pretend to look somewhere.ya , is really long that never see him, he still charming, he still a funny guy, he still him. but friends that always beside him are gone, i said before friends would not be forever. don't get cheated when your friend write to you "friends forever", haha, trust me, is just the word which are never make it promise..i would not surprised to happen this because im used to it.

wish to be

pheww!!!finally just have finish my bm and moral exam and now i can rest and barely to breath, peacefully.haihz...just felt sorry for choi mun, i should not scold her like that instead of console her. but that time i was really angry, why now she still like him?? i have give her enough time to make herself comfortable but she still said that he hurts her...omg... without man, woman can survive!!!hello!!this is not the normal thoughts that man is important to woman, without men, women still can do what they like instead of lose their own freedom!!!i hate that!!i can understand the feeling of breaking up with someone but life still have to go on rite??we cannot just stand here do nothing..we should do something that is meaningful,life will be more excited, but not this....we are still small, we don't know what is love at all, is just like a puppy love..she said i have no rights to tell her what to do...she hurts me...what she feel now is what i feel too.and because i have taste the pain, i would not hope anyone repeat my mistakes. i don know what is love at all, i had do wrong decision. really..