Santa Claus Is Coming To Town?:)

Its going to a Christmas day tomorrow;.so I guess it means that New Year's eve is coming. I don know if any people out there reading my blog , or observing me by using any internet access or whatever you call it, anyway just want to tell you guys that, my blog of style won't be my lifestyle anymore but all will be about food or maybe my working life:)


I might start to upload some tempting foods and all:) Well, have you guys ready for Christmas, exchanging presents , and have a meat feast? or perhaps making comfort foods , like sugar with egg whites, butter and cream , mix and whisk and there you go, some pastry going on eyh?:) or talking about the people you celebrating with, either friends or family. 

I promised one of my best friend, well she's not consider as my friend, cause she's me, my other soul:) , that I would write any poems that I have for her. I would not say every single day, but when the ideas of writing come, then I would present to her:) I know it;s a little too late, but at I start better than never right? oh by the way, I really miss her mash potatoes. I might go to her house to have it again:)

hello again

hello again:)
let me count how long since I've not been writing posts for blogs.
hmmm..very long XD
 nowadays, i watched all the music videos from this korean show,
it calls " scent of a woman"
its about a woman has diagnosed some dying disease, she quits her job and everything to spend her 3 months life to have a beautiful vacation.
then there's this handsome man she met in this vacation,
feeling something sparkling between both, something warm , something just..there.

well, imagine you're a person who is dying ,
will you risk yourself from being hurting yourself or hurting others thoroughly by falling in love?
falling in love is no wrong,
falling in love is not putting in prison.

yes,its painful that to be hurt in both sides.
but at least the pain that burns in heart,
is a reminder where reminds us the feeling that we used to have,
and the existence of the warmth and love.

hmm, enough for the nonsense,
today i just had my video commercial shooting for rough cut presentation.
I think this is the most productive stuff that I can ever do,
I'm the director of art and the script writer.
so when during the shot, my job is working with the photographer,
checking every scenes which is on my mind, and also have to demo all the actions infront of the casts.
how weary that could be?

and I think director's job is very very highly respected.
well it should be, but i just know that ,all they do is using their most "beautiful" voice and say
" camera rolling , floor silence, and action!"
well, after that, then" cut!" , what they do, is being as a boss, approve this approve that.
while the other position would be like worrying this and that and even do MORE than the director.
boss has the authority to have a better life and get treated nicely,
which i found its kind of unfair and almost ridiculous.
anyone is working? you would be willing joining me to curse them?:D

about handling the casts, i have to say that i chose wrongly,
shouldn't choose the ppl that are quite close to me,
because all they know is asking the time duration of shooting.
well, whenever they ask that i would feeling like banging my head to the wall.
how would i know the exact time as in like i can predict something.
and never ever skip from complaining.

aiks, well, i have no rights to say this, everyone has their own objectives and i have mine.
so when we view things differently, we judge things differently.

okay, enough for those craps,
right now staying at home alone,
facing the four-squared computer as in like im having interpersonal communication with it, haha.
didn't really get to eat dinner because fetched all the casts back home till 7 something already,
and knowing that my mom is not going to prepare dinner,
after all the sweats have no choice, got to bathe,
then watch TV for awhile and fell asleep, when i wake up its already 10,
so comes to conclusion, I don get to eatXD

okay, have to do assignments now,
the re-do assign since there are many groups hand up, and only one group passed.
life's is not going to be beautiful for you
so ciao:D

aint no more.

I am living in my own world , if now you ask me, that I'm happy or not.

I may and I may not. 
I"m getting sick of my own life, 
and trying find something still brings me up, 
to light myself up.
all by myself i guess? 
well, good to be dependent.
stuck a needle in my ass.
i can still feel the pain in hell, 
and smell the bloody scent.

happy birthday to you:)

hey you, happy birthday.
I really want to wish you today.
but i don have the guts.
where i'll remember everything happpened last year at the same day.

i don want to make anything more complicated.
not anymore.

movie time

my current favorite movie:)

FYI, favorite not because is something alike to my story,

but it just awesome:)

rate this 7.7 out of 10:D

movie time

who knows.

It's August.

summertime and rainy days at the same time?:)

happy birthday to all August babies!:D

oh, and him of course:)

just went back from somewhere and I think he had great fun there.

met some new interesting friends of course.

I hope he's fine and everything's fine.

hmmm..

the piano exam is coming very soon.

It's gonna be on next Tuesday.

venue is at Shah Alam Wave Blue Hotel.

I don know how to describe how I feel.

but yet what I know is,

I'm really want this so much.

to finish what I've started.

I remember when I was a kid,

I don't really know what piano was really for.

not when I saw my sister playing it,

sounds came out rhythmically,

that's the time when I know the real purpose of it.

It's for entertainment ,

or you can say accompaniment for singing.

I can say it's my " emotions releasing machine".

when I feel something,

my hands just want to touch the surface of the keys and press it.

"ding.." there, the sound just produced.

when I feel angry,

the tone is more to a mess, untidy, rushing and fast tempo.

when I miss someone,

every beat of it is like flowing water,

played like Chopin.

I really hate and like playing at the same time.

well, it's common.

no perfection exists in this world,

not you want to be an alien, or robot or some creatures heh:D

I see things more,

and learn understanding, explaining, valuing.

people always remain good or focus,

when they discovered something that is not what they expected.

and when they discovered , like finally.

they just let the final results freeze,

and never ever bothers it.

this same goes to human being behavior and act.

what I wanna do is,

i want to create something,

that makes great impact on other people's life.

at the same time on mine.

I want to create something unforgettable,

unpredictable,

add some mysteries alike teasers,

and something people will feel and agree.

I don't know what's my future is,

but what i know is,

when I'm asked to give some ideas and create something.

I just feel the whole world is magical and exciting.

my mind and soul right now,

completely hand in to my own future.

only this,

nothing else is on my mind.

which I'm glad:)