its like glass.

i know,
i know its like a glass.
when you break it,
it will just break into pieces.

i know,
i know it's like a glass,
when you try to put the pieces together
it's still have scars on it,
ugly and sad.

i know,
i know it's like a glass,
know that if you don't touch it,
put it at somewhere contented,
it will not get hurt.

but still,
when you touch it,
it breaks again,
and even more uglier.

you know it's not like a car that can fixed.
it's so fragile.
you need days, months, or years to recover.
and even,
you wanna keep yourself busy, to distract you from minding the hole in it,
but the more force you're using,
the more you feel dying.

i know,
i know it has to be fix.
i know it can still feel the pain.

keep moving.

"aiya, just keep moving la!"
"haih..just forget bout this, you can move on."
"never mind, just move on, you can do it."

move on.
keep moving.

so hard to do when you say it at ease.
sure, he is moving,

but where would i be?

each and every time.

just back from school,
felt weary and sad.

i was dizzy,
and almost faint.
my mom gave me wrong medicine,
that was the reason why i looked so weak.

i saw him today at school.
i was happy to see him.
but still,
why i just could not talk to him.
each time i see him,
each time i felt the presence of the hole in my heart,

i wished he could be more direct,
i wished he could be more confidence,
i wished he could be happy.

i want to have a big vacation with my friends;D
i want to have a big party .
of course,
it will happen after SPM.

gosh...
SPM. i think i just can't accept the fact that,
I'm going to get old already!
anyways,
i really hope that if there is faith,
i wish to see him again.
i wish he will always remember me.
i wish if there is miracle..

Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real.
Mad because I don't know how you feel.
Upset because we can't make it right.
Sad because I need you day and night.
Angry because you won't take my hand.
Aggravated because you don't understand.
Disappointed because we can't be together,
but still I'll love you forever.

took it from facebook.,
but still,
so true;D

art is life.

just had my science tuition with ashley and jess;D
hmmm, nowadays reading a novel,
which entitled" Dear john"
i'm reading this not because i'm too bored,
it's just something so special about this book;D

the girl named, Savannah Lynn Curtis.
the guy named, John Tyree.
well, there's this part which i love the most.

it's a letter,
" i stare at the ranch as evening settles in.It's the first night of the full moon,and for me, the memories will come.They always do.I hold my breath as the moon begins its slow rise over the mountain, its milky glow edging just over the horizon.
She pauses and crosses her arms,glancing over her shoulder to make sure no one has followed her.Finallly, she seems relax.And then i feel as if i'm witnessing a miracle,as ever so slowly she raises her face toward the moon.And for the briefest instant,ir almost feels like we're together again."

GIVE PATIENCE READING.
anyway.
i want to dye my hair after SPM.
I can't wait.
and i want to buy a new plaid,
and some dress.

get ready to look different;)
good news huh.
since everyone start saying that i'm pretty;D
hahaha!!!;DD

or i'll put on lens,
so i don't have to wear spectacles?
but it'll probably need time to used to it.
cause to tell you the truth,
i'm not a fan of lens;D

I WANT A NEW SWIMSUIT!!
i can't wait to swim again.
like i want to dive in and feel the water brushing all over my body parts.
and like i'm in the world which is not related to the real one.

there's alot of bad things happened nowadays,
but still i'm strong to get over with.

oh.
and i like Taylor Swift's new song.
Last Kiss.
you should listen to that song,
it's so true and so real,
like i said,
Art is life, where life is art.

you know something,but still you choose to ignore.

you know i don;t like being alone in a dark room.

you used to tell me,

think about everything bout you and me.

how we met,

how we became someone special for each other.

it did worked out;D

but now,

everything changed.

that would be a nightmare,

every night wishing that i won't be thinking bout it.

it hurts.

you know this would happen.

but you told me you choose to ignore.

you know you would leave me.

but you choose to lie.

i'm sensitive,

i know.

all i'm having is just pain.

when it's quiet.

it will be the worst moment for me.

because i miss you.

i know,

what's with you.

guiltiness.

i have no regrets,luckily.

people always get what they wanted when they really putting effort in it.
I'm just the one of them;)

i got A for my moral and maths.
i have to admit that i was so happy when i got to know the news;)
so it's the same thing going round,
you give efforts,
that's what you deserved.

at the same time,
it's been a hard week for me.
my parents are not here with me,
while I'm still having trials.

but I get a chance to do something which i seldom do.
COOKING.
cooking is fun;D
you just have to take ingredients and cook whatever you like.
the best thing is ,
I am improving my cooking skills;DD
proud of myself;D

i must work out after trials,
thinking that my bones are harder and harder day by day.
i should swim again.
so that i can make my body flexible.
and let my mind clear at all times;)

i have to go and practice accounts,
since i always get a B for that dam subject.
guess i better get going.
before i regret,
once again;D