i know the guiltiness is you , the pain is me.

I have to save the tears.
No more wasting.

Single life?
everything is back to usual.

uh.merdeka.

Today is Merdeka.
obviously, holiday ;D
i was sleeping like a dead person.
feeling hugged by Him.
but a knock on the door ruined it all.
my mom came in and woke me up.

I had breakfast with my family,
as usual, i eat alot;D
my babe might be still sleeping,
so didn't plan to msg him.

after a few hours,
i sent him a morning message.
thanks to him,
i have a Bunch of nick names right now=.=
The first time he called me: Mushroom head.
Second, he called me: Sotong face.
Third , he called me: fatty Andd Flat.
Fourth, a little better, well actually worse,
he called me : elephant.
hehs. but i just love him playing around with me.
i supposed this is how we communicate right?;DD

well. i was planning to ask him out,
but he probably couldn't.
so just drop it and get over with,
although i'm a little disappointed.

Sometimes, relationship doesn't gives you happiness only.
it's not always the "honeymoon" period.
Sometimes. i even have to endure the loneliness.
And even sometimes blaming him for not caring much.

well.trials coming.
part of the subjects are handled.i think.
just a few subjects are a no-no for me.
so i guess i have to go study now.
in case I'll regret for something.
Effort is what i need.
I don want my results to be like a piece of trash.

There is no ample time for me right now.
Two weeks to go.
So ciao:D

So close.

You're in my arm,
And all the world is calm,
The music playing on for only two,
So close together ,
And when i'm with you,
So close to feeling alive.
A life goes by,
Romantic dreams will stop,
So i bid mine goodbye and never knew,
So close was waiting, waiting here with you.
And now, forever i know.
All that i wanted to hold you.
So close.

So close,
to reaching the famous happy ending,
Almost believing this was not pretend,
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come.
So far,
we are,
So close.

How could i face the faceless days,
if i should have lose you?
We're so close,
to reaching the famous happy ending,
Almost believing this was not pretend,
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are,
So close,
So close,
and still so far.

bright:D

YOU were right.

I'm not the emo type.

Cause imma sunshine.

That will always be by your side.

<3

fragile.

Today is a bad day.
Had a bad dreams lately.
Maybe is because my sisters not with me.

Dam.
The room is spacious enough for now.
Hate that,really.

As usual.
Helped my dad to do some stuffs.
Helped my mom to cook.

Haha.
Seriously.
Digging out the organs from the chicken is so sickening.
Giving my mom a clap.lol.

So tired.
I can barely open my eyes.
And my body temperature is increasing.
Okay.
Just a temporary fever.

For who-knows-how-many-hours later,
I woke up and felt hungry.
Had my dinner, My Favourite~~

Then Annita called.
She said she'll be coming to my house.
Cause Soniya is sick.
And probably not coming to tuition with us.

SHE'S SICK.
Honestly, I just felt so left out.
My best friend is sick.
And yet i don't know what;s going on.

What kind of friend am i?
Maybe she's right.
I don't see her.
Even she's just inches away from me.

I.L.Y.

gosh..if my babe sees this.
he would be blushing all the way.<3

YES.he's mine already!!:DD
I'm glad the pain time has passed.
Love him at first,
it's like cutting my own heart.
Now.He loves me back.
I'm feeling alive.

OUR FIRST DATE;DD
No couple shirts.
No couple rings.
No taking pictures like others would do.
No romantic place for dinner.

BUT.
i have something more important than these.
and that's him.
Is okay that we're not wearing couple shirts.
Because we are already a couple.
Is okay we don't have couple rings.
As long as you still loves me.
Is okay we don;t have pictures of ours.
Because it'll be more later until i have to buy an album.
Is okay that having dinner in a simple place.
As long as i can see you,
That's the best place.best one.

I love the way we hold hands.
I love the way we hug.
I love the we kissed then blushed right away.

And most of all.
I Love You.

I really wish that.
You won't forget our promises.<3

helpless

please help me.
i feel left out.
seriously..
I'm really a girl who lives in her own world.