owkay

so this is it,
I'm back:)
back from Taiwan which is so freaking cold,
but overall is okay.

so there is some special things that i wanna share.
and this is about moral:)
you know taiwanese nowadays are so friendly.
that malaysian should learn.
even the toilets at anywhere,
you can see, its clean.

the occupation they have been doing are the serving one.
as you can see that they have practice how to be good in manners.

and they are not lazy.
they rather walk instead of calling cab:/
not like us,
we're just so tired:D

plus, my mom keep asking me to carry the duffel bag around.
gosh, that was heavy like one person.
and the weather is cold,
i wear until like you can't see my face:D

and we keep changing hotels,
so we can see that different type of service.
and their 7 eleven is cool.
and is everywhere.
they have those maggies from korea and japan.
oh, and from their own country.
so you will see that all the clothes and shoes labeled-made in taiwan.
cool right?

and they have so many night markets.
and it's very cheap!
nice and cheap!good:)
and i saw many good-looking guys:))
uh, this is too good to meXD

okay.
hmmm..i guess thats all?
OH!!

forgot to wish all my friends!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
it's a new chapter for me:)
i wish everything thing that i do,
can complete my life full of happiness:)

ciao!

p.s. sorry no pics, because it's too ugly:)

last chapter?

last chapter doesn't mean is the end,
i know someday,
i still believe in miracles,
that even he's not somewhere i can see anymore,

at least,
i know how to say goodbye:)


and,
for me,
that's the end.

heh.

yes, i want to be pretty again.

and yes,

i'm gonna take my best look to see you again:)

not just for now, but for always.

you know,
some people, they are afraid to face the fact that they don't wish to be.
and some people who will just do anything to get rid of someone they are afraid of.
but do you know,
when the time you really miss them,
or need to see them.
it's so hard to get back.

some couples,
1st month till 3rd,
in a honeymoon period.
people call it,
love is in the air.
but i call it.
"temporary sweets":D
you know..there are many couples who are scared of losing each other.
so the way of solving it is,
they don't want to think about it.
and they started to ignore.
hmm.i guess that's the best way for them?

and time is a killer.
work is a killer.
why say so?
for example, you can only see your loves one once a week, a month, or a year,
is your love is as deep as the ocean?

working is really good,
to keep you distracted.
and to make you forget the pain of losing someone:)
but when everything is settled,
when you're ready to get some sleep,
you will just simply remember all the memories,
and you even open your eyes,
stare at the ceiling, wish your mind and everything is at blank.

why is it so hard to keep a relationship?
is it maybe that is not the right time?
some people said,
love is a killer too,
it hurt peoples' heart when it can't complete anyone's life.

but when i saw this novel.
it says,

" when i think of you and me and what we shared, i know it would be easy for others to dismiss our time together as simply a by-product of the days and nights spent by the sea, a "fling"that, in the long run,would mean absolutely nothing.when i think of you, i can't help smiling, knowing that you've completed me somehow.there are so much more too.when i close my eyes, i see your face.when i walk , it's almost as if i can feel your hand in mine.those things are still real to me, but where they once brought comfort, now they leave me with an ache."

it's okay you feel the pain when you think of someone,
its okay you feel so scared of losing someone,
it's okay it hurts,
it's okay you cried over someone for so many times,
it's okay that you don feel like letting go.

at least i know,
if you have the will, everything is possible,
and i'll appreciate the every moments,
where i can see you.

and that,
will always in my heart.
now and always :)

i know you want me to forget those memories, i know you don want to hurt me, i know you don want to give any fake hopes, and i know its time to let you go.

its like glass.

i know,
i know its like a glass.
when you break it,
it will just break into pieces.

i know,
i know it's like a glass,
when you try to put the pieces together
it's still have scars on it,
ugly and sad.

i know,
i know it's like a glass,
know that if you don't touch it,
put it at somewhere contented,
it will not get hurt.

but still,
when you touch it,
it breaks again,
and even more uglier.

you know it's not like a car that can fixed.
it's so fragile.
you need days, months, or years to recover.
and even,
you wanna keep yourself busy, to distract you from minding the hole in it,
but the more force you're using,
the more you feel dying.

i know,
i know it has to be fix.
i know it can still feel the pain.

keep moving.

"aiya, just keep moving la!"
"haih..just forget bout this, you can move on."
"never mind, just move on, you can do it."

move on.
keep moving.

so hard to do when you say it at ease.
sure, he is moving,

but where would i be?

each and every time.

just back from school,
felt weary and sad.

i was dizzy,
and almost faint.
my mom gave me wrong medicine,
that was the reason why i looked so weak.

i saw him today at school.
i was happy to see him.
but still,
why i just could not talk to him.
each time i see him,
each time i felt the presence of the hole in my heart,

i wished he could be more direct,
i wished he could be more confidence,
i wished he could be happy.

i want to have a big vacation with my friends;D
i want to have a big party .
of course,
it will happen after SPM.

gosh...
SPM. i think i just can't accept the fact that,
I'm going to get old already!
anyways,
i really hope that if there is faith,
i wish to see him again.
i wish he will always remember me.
i wish if there is miracle..

Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real.
Mad because I don't know how you feel.
Upset because we can't make it right.
Sad because I need you day and night.
Angry because you won't take my hand.
Aggravated because you don't understand.
Disappointed because we can't be together,
but still I'll love you forever.

took it from facebook.,
but still,
so true;D

art is life.

just had my science tuition with ashley and jess;D
hmmm, nowadays reading a novel,
which entitled" Dear john"
i'm reading this not because i'm too bored,
it's just something so special about this book;D

the girl named, Savannah Lynn Curtis.
the guy named, John Tyree.
well, there's this part which i love the most.

it's a letter,
" i stare at the ranch as evening settles in.It's the first night of the full moon,and for me, the memories will come.They always do.I hold my breath as the moon begins its slow rise over the mountain, its milky glow edging just over the horizon.
She pauses and crosses her arms,glancing over her shoulder to make sure no one has followed her.Finallly, she seems relax.And then i feel as if i'm witnessing a miracle,as ever so slowly she raises her face toward the moon.And for the briefest instant,ir almost feels like we're together again."

GIVE PATIENCE READING.
anyway.
i want to dye my hair after SPM.
I can't wait.
and i want to buy a new plaid,
and some dress.

get ready to look different;)
good news huh.
since everyone start saying that i'm pretty;D
hahaha!!!;DD

or i'll put on lens,
so i don't have to wear spectacles?
but it'll probably need time to used to it.
cause to tell you the truth,
i'm not a fan of lens;D

I WANT A NEW SWIMSUIT!!
i can't wait to swim again.
like i want to dive in and feel the water brushing all over my body parts.
and like i'm in the world which is not related to the real one.

there's alot of bad things happened nowadays,
but still i'm strong to get over with.

oh.
and i like Taylor Swift's new song.
Last Kiss.
you should listen to that song,
it's so true and so real,
like i said,
Art is life, where life is art.

you know something,but still you choose to ignore.

you know i don;t like being alone in a dark room.

you used to tell me,

think about everything bout you and me.

how we met,

how we became someone special for each other.

it did worked out;D

but now,

everything changed.

that would be a nightmare,

every night wishing that i won't be thinking bout it.

it hurts.

you know this would happen.

but you told me you choose to ignore.

you know you would leave me.

but you choose to lie.

i'm sensitive,

i know.

all i'm having is just pain.

when it's quiet.

it will be the worst moment for me.

because i miss you.

i know,

what's with you.

guiltiness.

i have no regrets,luckily.

people always get what they wanted when they really putting effort in it.
I'm just the one of them;)

i got A for my moral and maths.
i have to admit that i was so happy when i got to know the news;)
so it's the same thing going round,
you give efforts,
that's what you deserved.

at the same time,
it's been a hard week for me.
my parents are not here with me,
while I'm still having trials.

but I get a chance to do something which i seldom do.
COOKING.
cooking is fun;D
you just have to take ingredients and cook whatever you like.
the best thing is ,
I am improving my cooking skills;DD
proud of myself;D

i must work out after trials,
thinking that my bones are harder and harder day by day.
i should swim again.
so that i can make my body flexible.
and let my mind clear at all times;)

i have to go and practice accounts,
since i always get a B for that dam subject.
guess i better get going.
before i regret,
once again;D

it's time to wake up.

it's not the end.
being single,
is just so great;DD

hope my life won;t be lifeless anymore,
cause i'm gonna start adding color ;)

Had a great time with my best friend,Choi Mun.

She called me this morning and said,

she wants to come to my house,

watch movie;DD

We watched drama,

the funny ones.

It's quite fun watching drama with friends,

trust me.

you will start to hate watching drama alone;D

She is the girl.

That i will always give support.

When there is any unfortunate happens.

Not because i love this friend the most,

it's just that the way she thinks,

every part of her,

is just like me.

We ate alot this afternoon while we were watching drama.

Wacky time;DD

it was raining just now.

great weather;D

and a perfect time to start wonder.

if there is a miracle.

it's just a temporary,

to let me forget the pain.

Its just a damn life.

well, i really hate this.
but when you have everything,
you still nagging for getting,
to tell you the truth,
i really don't give a shit.

sometimes,i do feel alone.
and that really hurts.
it burns in my heart,
its like i am screaming with all my strength,
but it only left soundless.

true friends,true love,
i really can't see it.
the only thing i can see is,
my world is so cold and dark,
it doesn't mean that i have no one in my life,
it's just that,
you can't find passion in me,
not anymore.

well.
i guess i better get going,
going to have test tomorrow.
wish me luck.

when i smile,

it's just a mask that i pretend to be.

L.O.L

hahhaa;DD
this is my dude, Jayden Liew.
He's been asking to blog bout him,
so here i am.

First time saw him,
a boy who has a charming smile like a small kid.
He is one of the reason that can make me laugh,
and he is the reason that made me want him,
To be my Best Friend.

We love to gossip.
Not bout bad stuff, the good ones:D
He even told me bout his childhood memories.
Sharing is really needed if you want a friendship strong right?

Well, i trust him.
Actually in a weird way.

He's the lunatic,
I'm the emotional.
So these two insane people,
will always be the best one for each other,
Bestie;DD

i know the guiltiness is you , the pain is me.

I have to save the tears.
No more wasting.

Single life?
everything is back to usual.

uh.merdeka.

Today is Merdeka.
obviously, holiday ;D
i was sleeping like a dead person.
feeling hugged by Him.
but a knock on the door ruined it all.
my mom came in and woke me up.

I had breakfast with my family,
as usual, i eat alot;D
my babe might be still sleeping,
so didn't plan to msg him.

after a few hours,
i sent him a morning message.
thanks to him,
i have a Bunch of nick names right now=.=
The first time he called me: Mushroom head.
Second, he called me: Sotong face.
Third , he called me: fatty Andd Flat.
Fourth, a little better, well actually worse,
he called me : elephant.
hehs. but i just love him playing around with me.
i supposed this is how we communicate right?;DD

well. i was planning to ask him out,
but he probably couldn't.
so just drop it and get over with,
although i'm a little disappointed.

Sometimes, relationship doesn't gives you happiness only.
it's not always the "honeymoon" period.
Sometimes. i even have to endure the loneliness.
And even sometimes blaming him for not caring much.

well.trials coming.
part of the subjects are handled.i think.
just a few subjects are a no-no for me.
so i guess i have to go study now.
in case I'll regret for something.
Effort is what i need.
I don want my results to be like a piece of trash.

There is no ample time for me right now.
Two weeks to go.
So ciao:D

So close.

You're in my arm,
And all the world is calm,
The music playing on for only two,
So close together ,
And when i'm with you,
So close to feeling alive.
A life goes by,
Romantic dreams will stop,
So i bid mine goodbye and never knew,
So close was waiting, waiting here with you.
And now, forever i know.
All that i wanted to hold you.
So close.

So close,
to reaching the famous happy ending,
Almost believing this was not pretend,
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come.
So far,
we are,
So close.

How could i face the faceless days,
if i should have lose you?
We're so close,
to reaching the famous happy ending,
Almost believing this was not pretend,
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are,
So close,
So close,
and still so far.

bright:D

YOU were right.

I'm not the emo type.

Cause imma sunshine.

That will always be by your side.

<3

fragile.

Today is a bad day.
Had a bad dreams lately.
Maybe is because my sisters not with me.

Dam.
The room is spacious enough for now.
Hate that,really.

As usual.
Helped my dad to do some stuffs.
Helped my mom to cook.

Haha.
Seriously.
Digging out the organs from the chicken is so sickening.
Giving my mom a clap.lol.

So tired.
I can barely open my eyes.
And my body temperature is increasing.
Okay.
Just a temporary fever.

For who-knows-how-many-hours later,
I woke up and felt hungry.
Had my dinner, My Favourite~~

Then Annita called.
She said she'll be coming to my house.
Cause Soniya is sick.
And probably not coming to tuition with us.

SHE'S SICK.
Honestly, I just felt so left out.
My best friend is sick.
And yet i don't know what;s going on.

What kind of friend am i?
Maybe she's right.
I don't see her.
Even she's just inches away from me.

I.L.Y.

gosh..if my babe sees this.
he would be blushing all the way.<3

YES.he's mine already!!:DD
I'm glad the pain time has passed.
Love him at first,
it's like cutting my own heart.
Now.He loves me back.
I'm feeling alive.

OUR FIRST DATE;DD
No couple shirts.
No couple rings.
No taking pictures like others would do.
No romantic place for dinner.

BUT.
i have something more important than these.
and that's him.
Is okay that we're not wearing couple shirts.
Because we are already a couple.
Is okay we don't have couple rings.
As long as you still loves me.
Is okay we don;t have pictures of ours.
Because it'll be more later until i have to buy an album.
Is okay that having dinner in a simple place.
As long as i can see you,
That's the best place.best one.

I love the way we hold hands.
I love the way we hug.
I love the we kissed then blushed right away.

And most of all.
I Love You.

I really wish that.
You won't forget our promises.<3

helpless

please help me.
i feel left out.
seriously..
I'm really a girl who lives in her own world.

all i can say is.

get the hell out of my life.

cloudy day.

I don know where to start but i'm really tired of seeing my family quarrels.
i'm so tired whenever i'm back home.
i have to look them quarreling again and again.
Mid term is coming soon.
i'm not prepared anything.
yet i'm still sitting down here and updating my blog.
HOW SMART I AM.

oh.another thing.
my bestie just set me a new name.
its----SOTONG FACE

hmph.

HATE HIM.XDD

nowadays i can't sleep really well.
cause my sister's friends stay overnight.
my house is no longer spacious.
so i have to be squeeze myself to sleepXD

p.s. I really do have a sweet smile??XDD

sick of it.

I've been thinking bout you for so many days,
I've been asking everyone's help to make my day,
I've been doing the same thing the whole day,
and now,
I'm so tired.

My mind is blank,
All the memories about you and me,
Take all parts of me,
Makes me even more weary.

I know I'm avoiding,
But sometimes i just can't help it,
I have to talk to you,
I have to see you,
But this,
will make me feel afraid of getting hurt.

Loving in one side,
Not once, but twice,
Feelings have to hide,
when you talked about your precious,
Faking a smile,
That's the hardest thing to do.

I need a hug from someone else,
Never been so lonely,
Never been so cold,
I have to close my eyes,
Force myself not thinking about you,
And that,
makes me feel tired too.

taylor's lakeside campus

TALYLOR'S LAKESIDE CAMPUS!!!!

ahh, I'm imagining my college life ALREADY!!
anyway, another fact.
I'M getting older now>.,<

well.
shall we take a look at the college??

I miss you.

THE FEELING IS MISSING..

FRIENDSHIP THAT WE HAD.

I MISS CALLING YOU WHEN I WANT TO.

I MISS HANGING OUT WITH YOU GUYS.

I MISS THE LAUGHING OF US.

I MISS THE GUY WHO LOVES TO SING.

I MISS THE GUY WHO ONCE TREAT ME AS HIS BEST FRIEND, LIKE THE BEST.

I MISS THE GIRL WHO LOVES BEING CRAZY WITH ME.

I MISS THE GIRL WHO WILL SHARE HER EVERYTHING TO ME.

I MISS THE SMILES OF OURS.

I MISS YOU GUYS,

LIKE SO MUCH.

awkward.

AWKWARD.

yes,really.

i don't know why i would mind that matter that much.

but it really bugs me alot.

it makes me feel like i'm in a world,

which is dark and clear,

and i'm alone facing it.

bad dream.

nowadays getting worse and worse.

i'm lost.

i don't know who am i anymore.

cause it's like.

gone.

just like old times.

there.my two little buddies:)
Yee jin &Mai tan

X&Y:)

M&X

we're back.

the forever three.

my favourites:))




extraordinary face:))


forever.

my beloved.

mommyyyyy!

(happy birthday!!!)

the babe's my mommy sunshine:)


"yer..shame shame eh..."

Another night.

mommy,me,my aunt:)

have you ever seen sisters being like this?+.+

te amo mom:)